Sunday, March 25, 2007

Friday, March 02, 2007

Discouraged and confused

So, I'm tired and frustrated. For some reason things are just piling up right now. I don't feel like most things are working out. Dreams and Visions for things seem to be falling apart. Plans for having someone move in with us to help Melissa work less and help financially are falling through. I felt that God was leading me and the youth ministry in a direction that I was excited about and now I'm finding that most if it is falling apart at the seams, the plans for "God Stalkers" and the like aren't working and although we have established core youth with gifts and stuff, in a lot of ways I feel like I'm starting over, from scratch...
Melissa's working cuts down on my ability to really put time and energy into what it is that God may want out of me and the ministry I'm involved with.
I'm overwhelmed and tired and confused and lost in many ways...I think I need down time with God...but how and when is a whole other question.

Sigh.....