Our list of stresses seems to go up every day, and even when one passes a new one seems to pop up. Endless list of loose ends that we can't tie off. Relying and trusting on God is all we can do and we're doing our best.
Today we had our 20 week ultrasound. Excitement and nervousness clouded everything.
We've felt that God truly wants us to pray for healing and a miracle. So we have, and we've trusted. Some times its easier than others to trust, but we've done our best.
So, we might have expected something like a report that was either a positive change or at worst, no change at all. The cysts would be there but everything else health wise would be fine.
The report;
VERY heavy swelling around all tissue.
Lungs filled with fluid (which I don't think is all that new)
2 weeks worth of stunted growth
Heart beat and spine etc... still look fine
The worst addition though... is that there looked to be a mass outside the body cavity, the tech used terms I didn't understand until she stated in english that its probably the intestines outside the body, but this is not confirmed and there seems to be some confusion where the doctors are concerned.
So, I want to cry, throw up, scream... hit something. I don't even know any more.
But we're going to keep praying, begging God for direction, understanding, peace and still a miracle until he tells us otherwise.
Thanks for your prayers
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